Sandbox of Thoughts

Mosaic was very good.

I went down at around 9 and managed to catch the last 3 performances of the night. The theme for the performances at the nokia stage was supposed to be jazz and funk. There was plenty swinging, comping, and trading, as expected.

Its my first time hearing the first 2 bands (which i liked most tonight), GruveAvenue and PhunkMob, both from malaysia. I must say that they were both excellent bands with dedicated musicians. Its important to know that the way your band creates music is vital to the overall gelling of bandmates and the overall sound produced. I noticed the 2 bands had different styles of generating their unique sound.

In my opinon…

The first had music that left me feeling it was well composed, balanced, and with variety. The second made me feel that it was just one guy wanking off on his drums, with the rest of the band adding their own stuff to what he was already laying down. Kinda reminds me of TOE. They did have a super awesome singer though!

Towards the end, there was this allstar jam session, which lasted late into the night. Then did they throw the solo drummer to jam with musicians from the other bands and it was very obvious that he couldnt blend in without drawing too much attention to himself.

I think the organisers did a good job with the location, sound, and the quality of music brought down to our currently cloudy Singapore this Mosaic. I just can’t believe that i didn’t have to pay for the satisfaction tonight.

I can’t wait for next saturday, when naturally 7 has their little session at the library.

Toodles.

A thought just suddenly crossed my mind, and i thought it would be good to share.

They say time heals all wounds right? This fact i stand by very strongly.

So suddenly i wake up one day and then i realised that im feeling pretty okay about everything, and that should be it right?

So yeah, it seems that all the negative emotion caused by the subconcious and concious reliving of old memories have lost its effectiveness. We can call it numbness. Everyday the pain gets easier and easier to deal with, not that its not there.

Now what?

What is easier to forget? A pretty face, a blow-up-doll physique, or the person who left a hole in your heart?

I need to explore the option of forgetting those memories because it will kill me if i should relapse one day. Not like i don’t already feel like the biggest loser in the world when it comes to this.

Its the end of AIT. Which means, its the start of another phase of training, which also means that I am still a trainee, with a 5.5day work week schedule. I wonder when I can start to believe anything they say.

Being disappointed is a daily affair, with people, with situations, with the way things happen to me. I feel that I have developed some kind of shell to overcome all the hurt and sadness that comes with being disappointed.

Anywho, maybe i shall spend more time working on my personal development. I shall continue with my personal retreat, to do what I have to do and see what I become in another few months time.

Have I been neglecting my friends and family? Maybe. I can’t help it, im sorry. I will make a more concious effort to make plans and keep them.

Its not so easy to cut someone out of your life. Stop mind fucking with me.