22 September 2008

bangkok dangerous

are you male or female? -transformers everywhere

Hola, im back from my Bangkok trip. Total spent: $810.

Flight: $350

Lodging: Amari Watergate $200

Shopping(food exp included) : $260

Technically i spent less, since i still have leftover BAHT.

Heres a recollection of what i can remember from the very short weekend vacation.

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16 September 2008

if life is a game

hello,

i am lost, regretful, disgusted, i hate myself.

please stay away from substances that cloud your judgement, they harm the people around you.

one night of pleasure a lifetime of regret, please listen to your mommas.

i went over the line, under the belt.

if life is a game, i fouled.

today, tomorrow, eventually, someday, over you.

how i wish it was yesterday.

i dont belong here, you dont deserve this.

i will be back next season.

14 September 2008

you make me torture myself

Hello. Today i witnessed an accident. It happened right infront of me. I could really empathise with those involved in the collision. I bet it was a drink driving incident.

Anyways, its pure torture to contain ones’ feelings. Feelings of what nature, undisclosed. I suppose when they say dont hold back and regret later and ponder upon the what ifs, they forgot to mention the post trauma of something called _________.

I sent my vespa to the body shop today. I wont be seeing it until more than a week later, where it should be coming back looking like a super. Every vespa in singapore has its story. I am pretty sure i am close understanding the history of mine. I spend alot of time on my new hobby. Some even say i am obsessed. 

Its the season for hormonal imbalance. Just like how women have pms. Only I have not succeeded in controlling them. I have rage issues.

Forget, regret, or life is yours to miss.

 

Vespa Rally 200

5 September 2008

what can seperate me from this wretched pleasure

Well that title is pretty stupid, for i know life is bigger then all the stupid crap which i am about to write.

My blog got hacked. Those lucky enough to see the porturussian fucker who changed my home-screen to the satanic image of his mother would know.

So i’ve got into 2 minor accidents, one putting my NCD to 0%. My trip to Bangkok is on the rocks due to political strife, which means i lose a few hundred bucks whether or not i am able to go. My job can be quite emotional and quite lacking in freedom. I am due to be serving the nation unwillingly. Little vespa still needs a couple more hundred to look pretty. Other stuff stuck in my head beyond my will.

Hopefully things will get better or i may just die when they drag me off into the pit of sorrows away from family and friends? .

I might as well learn to love myself before i lose even that privillege. I am going to start taking photos of little red soon.