Sandbox of Thoughts

Im not going to have any presents this christmas.

Im not even going to give myself anything.

Sometimes giving isnt really giving until it hurts.

I have so many things to practice for this december. That means many practices to go for.

MondayTuesdayThursdaySaturdaySunday booked for practices.

What about major project? What about my modules? What about my musiclab syllabus?

I wished some money would fall from heaven right now. So many purchases to make. Having money is security. Sometimes i wished i wasnt bothered by an empty bank account.

Im recovering from my flu. Crocodile soup for supper.

Hello hello, have u seen the dragonflies all around recently? mating season?

Happy birthday Jessica. Jessica is my little sis who turns 15 today. We had a glorious feast at the marriot cafe today.

here’s 3 generations of the women in my family.

Jessica, her mother, and her mother’s mother.

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Hello.

Woke up at 7.30am to get ready to go for choir practice. It was disastrous, there was nothing to wear. Everything was in the wash. I need more pants.

We sang for Jac’s parents silver wedding anniversary. Yes, a good 25 years. They look really sweet together.

Mass was fun. Got to see her whole family. Good looking people..

We stayed awhile for the reception and then to parkway for coffee. Courtesy of emman, who promised to treat me. Anyhow, a word of advice, stick to the drinks u usually have because the season promo drinks at coffee bean are such a disappointment.

EDIT: i believe in coffee bean’s brand name and their excellent customer service. BUT they really should do something about the trainee staff at parkway’s branch. Got my name wrong, needed to be reminded about the special order and my peppermint latte was REALLY TOO SWEET. i left more than a quater of the cup there.

Im going to parkway again in a bit for dinner.

Still dont know what to get for her birthday. This double sucks because i am so damn broke.

Heres Jac who, by the way looked really pretty today, and me in my sloppy white shirt.

Have fun trying to live for yourself.

i was too tired and underprepared, and well chances like that dont come all the time.

Theres no safety from all the stupid questions.

Everybody wants to know many many things they would do well not to interfere in.

I wish technology could advance to a state where the moment u click the link to view my blog, theres a programmed response to react to whoever visits, fiend or friend. Think my physical hand extending out of your screen, giving u a high-five, or a happy smack on your face.

Everyone needs to know that little bit more, bitch that little bit more, gossip that little bit more, to feel secure.

Exactly, because the world isnt fair, everyone is a 2 faced dog. That includes me and you.

I guess everyone lies to you at some point, though its probably because your not worth it.

Life is made to be miserable, you just have to find that one thing that makes the difference. And then, hold on to it.

If u have a brother, love him. If you have a sister, love her. If your family is tight, thats something to be proud of.

The perfect remedy for a perfectly timed disease.

I have been blessed. Nice dinner at Waraku Japanese tonight. Courtesy of Sam Lee.

This evening there was a really fine pianist called Fred who served with us for mass. Hes rather sociable too.

I need a drink. The expectations of this world is getting to me.

Apologies, but fuck u all who make my life so difficult.

Hello. Its been a weekend of solitude. Everyone is working/missing/dead.

Lets see, saturdays drum exchange was rather exciting. Including the pros that turned up, i think more than 50 showed up. There were drumfest finalists, old school ahpeks who have legs that pedal faster than me, a 19 year old.

There were also people who are big in the industry now, livethedream drummer who came back from Drummers Collective(i want to go there and study too). I didnt embarass myself by playing infront of everyone though. Almost everybody could shuffle and do funk grooves very cleanly. Everyone, could roll in double time. This makes me wonder once again whether my musical journey, which turns 2 years old this christmas, has been fruitful or not.

I should stop talking and start practicing. Schoolwork is being a bitch, and rotten teammates make it all the more worse. CMSK Submission tomorrow and i have absolutely no clue what to hand up. Hi : ).

Lunch at CHIJMES in a bit. I hope its someplace good. I have not really eaten good food in a long while. I was contemplating getting another part time job besides doing freelancing to earn more gold. School schedule however, doesn’t make that a very clever idea. If all goes well, graduation is just 3 months away.

Everything everywhere is more and more costly as the country ‘progresses’. Hello students and the average 3.5k-paying-jobs-unworthy people, we’ll struggle to live under the label of wealthy Singaporean.

Sleep well people, its important to stay focused if u have goals you want to achieve.

Caught game plan today. Nice show. “The Rock”, dwayne johnson, can really act. At least to me hahaha.

They flashed some really amazing scenes of ballet choreography and all. I guess it really isnt easy. Respect to all those who have passion for the arts : )

 My school work is killing me. There is seriously an issue with my time management. The thing is, i do know what is the problem. I keep putting having fun/entertainment infront of all my work.

I skipped on of my main module labs today to come home and do  my project. But thats not the full story. Oh well. I need divine intervention, to make the teacher kind and go easy on the attendance. :/

Carolling practice is going to start tomorrow. I know its going to be fun.

Still no news with the YMCA gig. I have no expectations whatsoever so i will ride on whatever wave comes along.

I have been too ‘open’ lately. MUST lock myself up for abit.

Im so tired right now. If only each day had 48 hours. 24hours will be used for sleeping. For all those who are in the army, maybe a routine is what makes one healthy.

 43 days left to put on my 5kilos.

Hoo-dlucks.

TODAYYY, i had cookies and cream cheese at Tom’s Palette. The renovation works at shaw towers are done.

 Ice cream was good as usual and i do not miss the building at all.

Walked around city hall. Slacked at swisshotel for kenji. Went to marina foodcourt, then had kennyrogers’ macncheese.

i am utterly broke.

edit* Video games bring people together. Like any other obsession, it can tear people apart too. Whatever it is, im glad i dont carry the baggage.

I made a bet to put on 5kg by christmas. No not the sudden burst of weight gain, but rather the kind that stays with u months down the road and eventually to stay. All the best.

Project work is a bitch, i do not have enough hours in a day to juggle sleep, practice, projects and social life. Right now everything is so tight. Tight like a little water balloon going to pop! Good thing is im rather bouncy so i can take some knocks here and there.

Short hair feels good. Screw u all who dont know how to appreciate it.

Plan to catch Game Plan? right.

There goes my playtime, time to turn to God for strength.

can i say what i like in my own blog?

no. i dont think so. people will get hurt.